IFS

Starting on Sunday, I began to do "Parts Work", an approach to our inner "world" that allows you to get to know what makes you who you are (& thus revealing what you aren't). It's already giving me a lot of mental relief.

If I had to summarize why I think I couldn't do this work before, I would attribute it to the unspoken assumption on this planet that we are mono-minds. That we are SOMEONE. Everything I've gone through in the last 2.25 years has really challenged that, and I think that's why my suffering has increased,... because I was being challenged with a new lens of reality. Embracing that I have voices inside of my head who BELONG and are my PARTS is making a world of difference in my mental health. In my case, I was particularly resistant to this lens of internal reality specifically due to the spiritual indoctrination I experienced in evangelical Christianity. A part of me swore to never let anyone ever again fuck around with my sense of Self (thus having that Part take over).

I'm making art again. This watercolor painting below is one I made with a soft intention of it representing how consciousness feels.